“pledge to her”
i will kill the spiders. i will share my fries with you when you’ve finished all yours and are still hungry. i won’t ever pop my collar. i will never be rude to your tummy- when i hear it growl and gurgle, i promise to bend down and reply respectfully. i will eat the toppings you don’t like when we order the supreme pizza. i will kiss the papercuts. and the door-slammed finger. and the counter-bumped hip. i’ll try my very hardest not to get annoyed when you whisper questions and comments during movies. i will be the big spoon. i will let you win at wii. and wrestling. sometimes. but not all the time. i will go faster. higher. i will pull when you want. and playfully tease you when you don’t. i will send you random txts and leave you silly gifts. not always. not on schedule. just whenever i want to. whenever i think you need one. or seven. whenever something reminds me of you when you aren’t around. which i hope isn’t very often. i will check the pressure in your tires. and remind you of the stuff you needed to get done. i will hold your hand. kiss your cheek. I will wrap you in my arms. i will love you. i will love you. i will love you.

"In a strange way, I had fallen in love with my depression. I loved it because it was all I had. I thought depression was the part of my character that made me worthwhile. I thought so little of myself, felt that I had such scant offerings to give to the world, that the one thing that justified my existence at all was my pain." 

"For those who believe in God, most of the big questions are answered. But for those of us who can’t readily accept the God formula, the big answers don’t remain stone-written. We adjust to new conditions and discoveries. We are pliable. Love need not be a command nor faith a dictum. I am my own god. We are here to unlearn the teachings of the church, state, and our educational system. We are here to drink beer. We are here to kill war. We are here to laugh at the odds and live our lives so well that Death will tremble to take us." 

"…He’s more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same."